What a Strange year so far!!!

It'll be 20 years this August, when my son, Jack (my previous puppy) and I moved into our house and is the longest I have lived in any one place my entire life. I initially had issues with a few of the neighbours, over petty things that they would start, but I had the attitude, to just ignore them and things would get better. 

Since August last year, it has become more apparent that one of my neighbours has a right problem with me, she knew about me long before I decided to start my transition. After pulling 95 hours of physical labour, in one week, I was extremley shattered and couldn't help yawning whilst we was talking, I apologised and said that I was extremely shattered. I was brought up to be polite, but I got a response of "you can't be shattered you don't work 2 nights a week", there's me thinking, "you cheeky fucking bitch", my dad was in the fire brigade worked 2 days on 2 nights on and on the 4 days off, and worked those 4 days, bloody hard doing general building, but rather than say anything, I bit my tongue, but obviously rolled my eyes, to which I got told "don't be a dick because you have one", I nearly responded with "Don't be a c**t because you have one" but I know better. This isn't the first time, I have been bullied by this person, even my son noticed the same attitude earlier in the year. Things started to get strained as the year progressed. 

Now most of the neighbours either say hi, or wave, we are neighbours after all, not all of us are close friends, but I have been told by customers in most areas, people are not friendly with their neighbours, so for years, I was thinking that we have a nice little community of 11 houses. It is always hard for me when new neighbours move in, but all have been lovely, and I came home yesterday to see a for sale sign up, which will get me anxious about who moves in.

It became more apparent when I was at a non-trans social event, that I was being squeezed out of a circle of friends whilst we was chatting, maybe it's because I'm single, I don't know, but someone else who is single was also squeezed out of the same circle whilst we was chatting. The other friend who that happened too, asked me what was that about, so I told him what I believe to be the reason.

As the months went by this year, I have been increasingly blanked out the front by this neighbour, even after saying hello to them, the only time I wasn't blanked by her hubby, was when he was on his own, or when he came up to ask, how I managed to buy another van. I basically told him, you don't want to know, I particularly didn't want to share that information as the only reason he came up to ask, was because she wanted to know the gossip.

I, actually thought that things were ok between the neighbours hubby and I, then without warning, he left the chat group for the bikers group, and the face book group, that he suggested we start last Christmas, when I asked if everything was ok, I got told that he has stuff going on. Then other members started to leave, one that he introduced, without any reason why. When they was asked by other members why they left, each gave different reasons to different people, obviously unable to keep a straight lie. The funny thing is, if it wasn't for me getting back on a bike, and getting him to come on a few ride outs, he would never have met any of the people I have. 

If there isn't an issue towards me, I don't know what is. But thats pretty much how bullies and narcissists work, if you don't conform to their way, they manipulate others around you, so you'll be left with nothing. Maybe its the hormones, I doubt it, but that's how it seems, and thats not just to me either. 

If I'm honest I would people just grow a pair and come and speak to me, as far as I know I have done nothing wrong, which makes things worse.

I then got attacked by another neighbours dog, shit happens, and to be honest I wasn't too worried about it, providing work wasn't affected too much. I never got asked how I was whilst I was at the hospital, or when I got back, instead I got verbally attacked, I told them that if thats their attitude I would do something about it. The next day I decided to pull the cctv footage showing me coming from theirs into mine with blood dripping from my face, so I had prove, just in case things did escalate. It was then I heard a conversation that one of the cameras with audio picked, the conversation was the neighbours daughter, the dog owner, who was on the phone, "he's gong to sue me, and have Teddy put down, if he reports it to the police you need to make sure that you take care of that fucking heshe".

My gut reaction was to go round and and have words, but that "knee jerk" reaction is what has gotten me into trouble years ago, so I sat and stewed upon what had happened.

That conversation that the cctv recorded, I actually took as threat to my safety, so I spent the Sunday thinking about each scenario and what any and all backlash would happen if I reported it. I originally wasn't going to report the dog biting me, but I did on the following Monday. The police have all the cctv footage, I have a few backups dotted about as well. so if anything happens to me, at least there will be a place to start.

So that's the reason why I no longer want to live here, why I don't feel safe with people I have known for years, why I am seriously thinking about dropping a few people from Facebook, why I am seriously thinking about dropping the ride out group, and leaving the groups I am members of, and why I am very seriously thinking about approaching someone who I have a very good standing with, for a permanent work position, so I can afford to move away and close down my business.