Happy New Year 2017

The past year 2016, has seen a lot of issues with my family and to be honest I have completely given up on them with the exception of my Son, who I am so very proud. My family seem to only want to get in touch for birthdays and Christmas, any other time of the year, they don't bother with me, so why should I bother with them. Yes I know that sounds a bit harsh, but if you want to be involved in my life and receive things like presents at those special times of the year, then for crying out loud, make a f**king effort!!! My time is precious and I will always try to make time for those I care about, and to be perfectly honest, that's my Son, my dog Jasper, my Neighbours and my friends.

To all my friends that might read this, those that are in our community, the ones I hardly ever see, the ones that are always in contact, even if it's just via Facebook, you all make me laugh, cry, and feel like I have a real family, who care, yes some of you are piss taking so and so's but that's why I love you, so from the bottom of my heart, I love you all. xXx <3 

Until last year, I personally have not talked to any male friends about my transitioning or anything about me, why? I don't know, too scared I suppose, what if things don't work out, do I risk the lose of a good friendship? You know the usual bullshit, anyway, last year, I went to MCN with my neighbour, (me in drab) and we had a few beers as we stayed the night in a hotel, now, even though he knew about me, and even though he's seen ME go out with Jasper, we never really talked, I don't know what the hell I was scared of, and yes true friends just wouldn't care, and yes I was a silly cow. So after dinner and a few alcoholic beverages later, I mentioned I wasn't looking forward to riding on my motorbike into London the following week, due to the cold, he asked why was I going? So I said, about the electrollosys and that started the conversation, I'm really glad we talked, for me it was a hurdle I had to overcome, my neighbour, was an absolute star, I have always trusted my neighbour and his wife, and with the exception of my son I trust them more than I trust my family. 

Last night I saw the new year in and that was with my neighbours, it was the first time he and an interaction with me, and I think it went well, I was a little shy as I was really scared, I think he was too, lots of alcohol later, I think we all loosened up. I just could not wish for the better friends, and I do class them as family xXx

So what's in store for this year, well that's for another post I will type out later, for now, this will have to do, I hope you enjoyed reading it , if it made you get all teary eyed, it did me. Now Jasper is bugging me for his walk lol.

XOXO