An Exciting and Emotional Week

Oh My God, where do I start?

So I have had one of the craziest weeks so far. I met with my area rep for a boiler manufacture, yes I know I have blogged about "Bob" before so I just want to recap. I was a little scared, ok I admit a lot scared when I was talking to him, he has only known the other part of me and that was on a professionally level, so talking to someone about personal stuff, that will undoubtably affect my professional life, was a little scary and it was emotional for me, and him on all levels. If I'm honest I have liked (not in that way) and trusted him for years, so even though I was blown away by the fact he was just brilliant, he has, without knowing gave me a whole new perspective on things. There was talk of an opening in the company, on the west coast of a dual roll, that is of a Service Agent and Area Rep, and although it does sound extremely exciting, I do not have the confidence in myself, as me, to be able to sell to the trade and hold "breakfast" events in the plumbers merchants, and yes I know times are changing, but I love and respect the boiler manufacture way too much to place their products and reputation in a situation that may cost them sales, in an area, because, maybe, of a few "non-understanding" people. ( I didn't want to call anyone a bigots as I don't know the people of that area, I hope that makes sense? It does inside my head at this time :p lol ). I also had a breif chat with the office, "Bob" did do me a massive favour and let them know, which I am eternally grateful, again I knew there was a reason I fell in love with their boilers 20 years ago. It must just be Karma, you know like when you see a certain, expensive make of heels and you just know they are the ones for you!!! On another side to that, my customers have been so brilliant, patient and understanding and I do not want to abandon them, some of them are more than customers, some I would even class as family, so unless health stops me from working, I'll be there for them until I drop. xXx

Apart from a few more customers that I informed this week, I invited myself round to a friends house for coffee, I was just working round the corner, and I really wanted to tell him. This guy (I have said before I not using real names), is someone I trust with my life! I know that sounds corny, it isn't and you'll see why in a moment. We met on organised motorbike ride-outs, and he is one of the most honest and trust worthy people I know. I don't think a lot of people, actually get how much you trust the person next to you when your out for a ride on 2 wheels, unless you have been there yourself, and that when most people hear that bikers are a brotherhood, whether it's a full on MC or just a group of enthusiasts, we all, will look out for each other, whether we know that person or not, a biker will not and should not be left behind or at the side of the road, I suppose that's because any biker or "A person willing to take a container of flammable liquid, place it on top of a hot moving engine and the put the whole lot between their legs" is an absolute nut case, and that a biker deserves respect, and in the true meaning of respect, thats one of the reasons I wanted to talk with him, face-to-face instead of him reading a post about me on Facebook in a few months time, which posting this about me on FB is something I would never do. We sat and talked for a few hours and that was awesome, he was awesome and from someone I have only known for a few years, he just blew me away. It wasn't till I got back in my van, that I realised how much that touched my soul, and yes you guessed it I burst into tears. I even started crying whilst I was driving home. The next day I exhanged a few texts and I was again, blown away. What really made my week was that I received a Facebook request from him whilst I was working and my heart just melted. I'm pretty sure the Ninja rider will read this, and when you do, you have made me one of the happiest people alive, with your kind and understanding soul, I can not believe how fortunate I am to have friends like you and your family. XOXO p.s. your getting another hug when I see you ;-) 

Oh I also had my hair cut again today, I am really pleased with the cut and I will be posting up a selfie when I make this blog live, I was going to sort myself out after dinner this evening, but I fell asleep on the sofa and woke up around 11pm. What woke me up was a really strange dream about an old friend from school, who I occasionally speak to. There was talk about telling him a while back, which I will get round to doing at some point, but lets just say that we have some serious history, dating back to secondary school until just after my marriage. I did want him as a god-father for my son, but we never got anywhere near having anything like that, and as none of us are religious, it didn't seem to be a priority, and hey I was baptised and look how I turned out ;-) lol I know right haha.

So to recap on the week, it has been one of the most emotionally good weeks in a while, both professionally and personally and that I really am blown away by how understanding and supportive of the people around me. I had a brief phone call today with one of my dearest friends and she said, it's amazing how our own phobias will hold us back, and that we have to be selfish and say hey this is me, deal with it or get lost. It's true though, our own phobias do hold us back, from walking out the door, to accepting who we are. One of mine, was, "What the hell will I do for work? I can't work as me doing my job" and that's one of the things that has been holding me back from being who I am for years. But not now.

XOXO